So it’s been three days (I think), of headaches, sleepless nights, a bleeding heart, and failed attempts to be occupied. I believe I’m doing better than most girls. The vodka remains unopened, and I haven’t slashed my wrists or anything of that sort. I’ve done this before, it should be easy, right?
Funny thing happened today. I was *thisclose* to paying for a ticket to Singapore online, and when I checked my passport, it will expire tomorrow. Great. Change of scenery for a broken heart FAIL.
I’m going out of my mind, wanting desperately to go to my girlfriends who ALL happen to be not within the same zip code, worse, the same country.
I’m so tired of crying. So, I took into singing out loud lately. I have to admit, it helps.
Criminal
Fiona AppleIve been a bad bad girl,
Ive been careless with a delicate man.
And its a sad sad world,
When a girl can break a boy
Just because she can.Dont you tell me to deny it,
Ive done wrong and I want to
Suffer for my sins.
Ive come to you cause I need
Guidance to be true
And I just dont know where I can begin.What I need is a good defense
cause Im feelin like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.Heaven help me for the way I am.
Save me from these evil deeds.
Before I get them done.
I know tomorrow brings the consequence
At hand.
But I keep livin this day like
The next will never come.Oh, help me, but dont tell me
To deny it.
Ive got to cleanse myself.
Of all these lies till Im good
Enough for him.
Ive got a lot to lose and im
Bettin high
So Im beggin you before it ends
Just tell me where to begin.
What I need is a good defense
cause Im feelin like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.Let me know the way
Before theres hell to pay.
Give me room to lay the law and let me go.Ive got to make a play
To make my lover stay
So, what would an angel say?
cause the devil wants to know.What I need is a good defense
cause Im feelin like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.What I need is a good defense
cause Im feelin like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.
All I can say is, I’ve never been sorrier in my entire life.
I’m not trying to make light here, but I am now very curious as to how your singing voice sounds…
I bet it does; same as how shouting the heart out while standing on the edge of a cliff makes us feel better. it’s like a stress reliever.
you’ll get through this. it’s not like it’s the end of the world right? there’s always tomorrow..
cheer up!
it is the end of your world…don’t you worry you can create a new world after this..
too bad… had you pushed through, we could’ve had coffee
that is, if you were really meant to be goin to singapore
ciao.
Akira baybeh! You’re based in SG now??? Ugh.
it is the end of your world…don’t you worry you can create a new world after this..