Tag Archives: Depression

Mantra Part 2

A rehash of my old Mantra post. Under different circumstances this time. First commandment when you’re ABOUT TO pursue a relationship with me. 1. Be intimidated, yes. I can do all sorts of crazy things to you. Call me ball-crusher, drama queen, enchantress, what have you. But thou shall NOT falter. No matter what. I [...]

What Could Have Been, and Then Not.

Dear you, I cannot do this. We cannot do this. You have successfully disarmed me, stripped me naked. With what and how, I honestly don’t know. The last few nights have left me utterly overwhelmed. Vulnerable. I’m scared shitless. Perhaps you think nothing of it; I don’t know what you’re thinking, really. But before this [...]

Empty

I lay there, heaving and sweating, in a large canopied bed. At first, I couldn’t make any sense out of it, where I was, what I was exactly doing. My mind was muddled, as if I was streaming in and out of consciousness. I can hear women speaking in hushed tones, of water being poured [...]

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I am beyond grief, vexation, sadness. My heart is bleeding.

Change

For the past several weeks, I’ve been working my ass off. A big change, really. I suddenly found myself having three jobs, one different from the other, a combination of the things I am passionate about. If I focused on one job alone, I’d definitely be bored; I would need to do other things. The [...]